Yeah, I do make an extra effort in the vain hope you’ll notice for once. I do my hair and make up different just to see if you look at me different. And when you dont react in any way I get convinced that I look horrible.
I am scared to message you first incase you get irritated by me. I get nervous if you walk past me but I always slyly look up just to see if you’re looking at me or not. I never really know what to say to you to make conversation, in fact I rarely say hello first because I dont wanna come across as in your face and too much.
When you message me first I literally gasp because I’m so happy. It makes me happy to think that even for a split second you wanted to talk to me.. regardless of what the message says.
I always notice the little things like new shoes or hair cut or new shirt but ill never comment on it. No matter what you always look 😍😍😍
But I can never and will never say this directly to you because I’m afraid that your response will be what I dont want to hear.
I will forever convince myself that I’m not good enough, pretty enough, just enough for you because I honestly dont believe that you see me like I see you… and you’ll never understand how upsetting that actually is.
How can you “know your worth” when you feel worthless?
Selena Gomez shopping in Paris on September 30, 2014
I am now officially a Model with Adora Model Management!!!!!!
The amount of times ive lied to you saying im okay when all I really want to do is kiss you is unreal….